working all day!

have a happy FRIDAY! byeeee!

today

this is how i feel about getting headaches^^^^. not happy. not cool.
I've been combatting another headache, took some med and felt better. So I hungout with Erin today and I made toasted peanut butter and jelly sandwiches using a sandwich maker. I love Reese's brand peanut butter; it's the best! I'm not sure why I keep getting headaches! ahhhhhh fingers crossed I don't wake up with one tomorrow because I have to work all day!

this is what i get for making videos->

Comment on your video: Top 5 Makeup Brush Haul

Hi jessica!
i really like your video's,
but I think you should act a little more confident.
people ook up to you and look at your video's to learn and/or because they are interested in your opinion, so there is no reason why you shouldn't be!
and you move a bit to much and it looks like your nervous so that destracts sometimes.
I could be wrong about the confident thing.^^
l do love what your doing, so keep it up!
xxx

thanks.

headaches run my life

waking up doing the same old

routine

who am i?

where am i going?

working hard to feel better

resting to gain consiousness

i'll be myself soon

up in the clouds

prancing on perfect cotton

this is all i want to feel

happiness is kicking in

sorrow isn't an option

i want to go forward in this life

never backward

those moments are called mistakes

they're stepping stones en route to

growing up

maturation

it's my plan to get what i want

i'm constricted in previous happy times

i want to re-create them

i musn't fall behind

to the future i will climb

fave pic of Morts:

erased

so today's photos from the photoshoot got erased! i know so sad! i really liked some of the shots, anyways, we're going to have a reSHOOT on Thursday, so hopefully everything will go well this time!

thrifting w. linds&erin

no makeup! ahhhh
i'll show you what i get when i home!

working

going to work!

saviour

i've been really low lately, and i don't know why i let myself get this way. i usually am pretty good at putting up a wall with happiness' strength. i'll be okay. thank you.

last night you showed me your ability to care.

you were there.

that's what i needed.

thank you.

day 2 of this headache

look at what you're doing

open your eyes

what do you see

did you want this when you

said i do

did you really mean til death do us part

you're cutting everyone down

you're leaving her out

why'd you have to start a fire

that's quickly gaining higher ground

who is this guy you've turned into

how are we supposed to live this way

don't you wanna be happy

do you want us to be happy

i remember us all being close

the fire is taking over

who's standing on your side

when the smoke is hardly clear

what are you thinking

we are here

we always are

steer yourself in the light

you'll see everything will be alright

just come over here

it's hard waiting for you to turn around

it's all coming back to me ow

i have a headache :/

we see what we want to see.

the fantasies are always better

than what really happens.

we like to make expectations

of people, places, experiences, etc.

why are we constantly making pre-assumptions

all the time when we don't even know what we

should or could compare someone or something

or some place we've never explored.

we are so busy; us human beings. constantly finding

reasons and answers due to our unsettling minds.

it's up to me

to get that bronze w/o my energy saving light shining on me.
to make things happen.

to get things started.

to be happy.

to go to school.

to make money.

to be somebody.

to get somewhere.

to get up and live.

sore throat, hot fiahhh

new hurrrrrr.
i def. prefer blow pops over cough drops anyday.
linds&i getting ready.
it always takes me 2 outfits to actually feel comfortable with what i wear. is that weird?

Feverish

I'm sorry I will not be posting any pictures today because I am sick, and I probably will frighten you all with my sicky look. Anyways, later on today, at or around 3:30pm my family and I are all going to the movies to see Harry Potter, then later we're going to get burritos. I am probably more excited for the burritos then the movie to be quite honest. I only say that because I can't really sit still in a movie theatre, and I haven't read the Harry Potter books, well past the first one, but I've seen all of the movies thus far. You can hate on that if you want. I don't care. Hopefully, I'll be feeling better tomorrow because Wednesday I have a fundraiser to merch for, so fingers crossed I don't pass on my sickness to the 600+ people that are expected to show up.

To pass time away from actually acknowledging my symptoms, I have been laying in bed playing with some editing on paint net!

Smokey Eye

owlyyyyy! iceeeee.
I have absolutely no idea why my eyebrow is semi invisible! hahaha. Last night, my family and I watched this movie called Along the Way, which was semi-corny because you could predict what would happen before it even happened. I liked the overall message which was not taking anyone for granted,living for today, and knowing that there are consequences in all of your decisions which doesn't only affect you, even though you may think so. Anyways, I have to finish my now cold black coffee and then go to work! Have a wonderful Sunday everyone!

Dinner/Dessert Kickback with Kaila

Linds and I hungout with Kaila earlier tonight, and got sushi and froyo, my two faves! Well, 4 counting a good friend haha!

cut this tee

white weird cap sleeve tee turned baggy tank top!
this pose always reminds me of GaGa. haha love her.

yesterday's mini photoshoot with Erin and Linds

who says you have to be serious all the time?
Erin!
swingset.

i was on a tree swing! i love swings!
Linds!
the sun beams were shining in my eyes in this shot! haha

we found a goalie! haha jk it's a soccer field.

wrong

we used to be close

like two peas in a pod

you were just like me

now whenever youre around

it's like you don't see me

what happened to us

what happened to the love

that we used to share?

did something happen

you can't run away from

this forever

i've been thinking of all the things

that could've taken place

but there's hardly a trace

in the path that we used to walk on

i don't even know your face anymore

who do you believe in

what makes you happy

i want to know

you don't let me in

you know i can't stand it

it's not what i imagined

i cut my longsleeves into tanks

i also made a headband out of the sleeves.

first glance friend

you probably want to label me

go ahead i've heard it all

you can call me whatever you want

you can't hurt me

you won't ruin me

it won't hurt

unless you know who i really am

you will never truly hurt me

you can't break me down

down into the broken ground

where are you coming from?

is it all hearsay?

is it all garbage?

why do you listen to surfaced rumours that

fly like birds in the sky

see how they soar

they get by

they float on air

there's no real foundation

go ahead breathe in this trash

when will this end

you were never my friend

you are not my friend

off to work!

haha morty wants to use my laptop while i'm at work. hahahbye morts, i'll see you when i get home!

i'm pretty sure im going to make a video with gina later tonight, so i'll post that once it's done! i gotta go! bye everyone!

here's the vid:

my twin sister Lindsay

has a tumblr. Her link is www.lovelindsay.tumblr.com

So if you have a tumblr, then you should follow her!
She has some cool posts that are really amazing! Be

sure to check it out!

my mornings are all the same

they start out with me waking up, and the first thing on my mind is cereal! i get excited to eat cereal! my favorite has been frosted mini wheats, but a couple of days ago we got this new kind,

and I have it with vanilla soy milk and a huge cup of black coffee. I love black coffee for some reason. I used to love soy lattes and caramel macchiatos and sweet drinks like that but for a few months now, I can't handle all the sugar! I guess I'm like an old person now or something! hahah I don't know. I'm going to a doctor's appointment later today with my mom. I love her. She's pretty much my best friend, I mean Linds is my best friend, but my mom comes after. I learn so much from her everyday and she's so inspiring. I decided I'm gonna wear dark eye shadow more often because I think it compliments my dark hair. Let's see.

My friend Kyle made me this JC shirt, I think he used stencils and spray paint? Not so sure, but I think it's super rad!

Love it!

video with Linds

beauty

my cat is so beautious!we have matching finger mustaches ahhaa
my twin sister made these wristband bracelets that say "♥ always". I wear this everyday. It's a positive reminder to spread the love everywhere you go and everywhere you are.

the makeup i used to get this look are:

HIP- wicked duo both colors

Benefit-bossy

bare minerals: trust eye glimmer

st. tropez powderbronzer

rimmel london-kohl eye liner pencil

losing interest

you say you love me but you act just the opposite

i don't want to hear the pretty words just so i can smile

i want you to throw away the false promises

because you are losing my interest

it's not that i don't care for you, i do

all i want from you is to know

what happened

we used to be so good together

now there's no desire in the words that you speak

you should just go

you'll feel more than this i promise

but don't leak these letters that assemble 8, 3, and

one meaning if you don't aspire to its meaning

shut up and don't say a word

don't even speak

there's room to doubt with the actions that are present

everytime I hear the words that speak i love you

poison ivy/pocahontas

i think my makeup today is a little reminiscent of poison ivy's overall look:do you see the sleeping kitty? his name is Morty! He's like a bunny because of his charm and the way he moves.


the makeup i used for this look were:

victoria's secret silky eye shadow quad- heidi klum's collection called lights out

(green)

benefit- bossy eye shadow

bare minerals glimmer eye called trust

hip-wicked duo

whenever i straighten my hair, i slightly feel like pocahontas:

today=

this describes my day so far:I had work earlier today, which was good, but I should really have more self control while I'm there.

today i'm wearing

i'm wearing my mom's vintage florida flamingo tee. i love its bright color!! i'm also wearing cut-off shorts i made from hollister jeans. haha they work!

summer's last wave

There is this song by summer's last wave that I cannot help but get lost in when I listen to it. It's called "forever never ends". It takes me to a place by the water, when I listen to songs i imagine what the music video would look like, and when i imagine this music video, I picture a beach scene at the twilight time of day overlooking the sunset and i picture a couple walking together under the summer sun but it would be from the past. Not only will the couple be happy in this scene, but the scene would go back into the couples' past and show portraits of what their lives have become from when they were together. The scenes at the beach during sunset would show them writing their names in the sand inside a sand-sketched heart. The scenes would be black and white when the music video cut to the past and it would jump back to their present lives surrounding their separate lives and how they reminisce about each other. This video reminds me of being happy of what was and not mad or upset about how things have ended, but glad that it happened. Everyone should go listen and checkout this song.

twin question video!

look what i found!

toys!

ooh and my favorite thing ever...a black and white cookie! well okay, it's not a toy!